Many years ago when I was working at a daycare, I was in charge of closing the building on the Friday before Mother's Day, so I had to be the last one out of the office. The time clock was right outside of the office I was working in, so everyone said goodbye before leaving. We were trying (unsuccessfully) to get pregnant at the time so it wasn't exactly fantastic to hear "Have a great Mother's Day weekend" over and over again.
Then one person was getting ready to leave and I heard her going past all the rooms and saying goodbye to teachers and the parents that were there picking their children up. Over and over I heard, "Happy Mother's day to you." She clocked out and said it to everyone in and around the office. Then made a point to say-"Well, Lisa, I can't say it to you." Of course she didn't realize what she said, but it was like a stab in the heart. I rememeber holding it together and then crying in my car.
Through the years I have tried to get through Mother's Day many ways:
Pretend nothing is wrong. Do all the Mother's Day stuff but don't think about it. Just another day that doesn't apply to me.
Ignore it. Complete media block and no leaving the house.
Going overboard with it. Spending money I didn't have to show my Mom how much I appreciated her and making a huge deal out of it. (My Mom is awesome so it was totally worth it.)
But, this weekend I will be spending Mother's Day in a way I never have before.
AS A MOM!
But, as I am celebrating, I will also be thinking of those of you who are still waiting and hoping for their chance to be a Mom. I hope this is the last Mother's Day you have to feel this way.
I will also be thinking of a very special Mom who gave me the opportunity to be a Mom. I am forever grateful for her and I will be holding her in my heart this weekend.