Saturday, October 24, 2009

Being Profiled

Yesterday we got a call from our adoption agency. When I saw their number on the caller ID, I got butterflies in my stomach. I don't know why, but most calls about a profiling opportunity come on a Friday afternoon. So, I had a feeling that was why they were calling.

She asked if I was ready to hear the details and I said yes before I even had pen and paper so I had to scramble quickly as she began talking. It had been so long since we got a call about a case. The last time was in April! I don't think we have been profiled at all since May.

I was very excited until she said Texas. Texas?

For the first six months, we weren't even open to being profiled for cases outside of NY because of the added expenses. This makes me very nervous because they said they don't know the fees yet, but had to get profiles out. They said we could change our mind once they find out how much it would cost. So, there is a chance even if we are chosen, that we couldn't afford it. And that is just fees. Then there is traveling to Texas.

So, I spent the first few hours being scared of this case.

Then the hope and excitement started to creep in. I looked up how long it would take to drive to Texas. And started thinking about having a baby by Christmas. Why do I do this to myself??

So, now it's time to wait for an answer. Waiting. Something I should be used to by now.


  1. Keeping my fingers crossed for you!

  2. Knowing how your adoption journey has not been easy or quick makes me so hopeful that finally some good things come your way on that front.

    Also, while I'm not at all dismissing or discounting the fact that you need to pay the fees/costs up front, remember that many adoption costs apply toward the adoption tax credit and would be refunded back to you. (Talk to your tax professional, yadda yadda.) I'm no doubt telling you something you already know! :)

    Fingers crossed!

  3. Fingers crossed and saying a prayer <3