Monday, October 18, 2010

Itching to Blog

I want to take the time to write a real blog post right now, but if I do, I will probably miss my chance to eat dinner tonight.

I would love to write all about how my sister and brother in law came home (from Boston) last weekend and my brother and sister in law came home (from Portland) this past weekend.

My brother actually spent the whole day here at our house and it broke my heart when he left to go to the airport a couple hours ago.

Last week when my sister left the room after saying good-bye to Jayden and I, Adam said, "He won't be this little next time she comes home." I lost it. I was crying before she was even out of the house. I hate that my siblings live so far away. I am counting down the days until Christmas because they will all be home at the same time. We'll all be together as a family for a full week.

(Notice how I said I didn't have time to blog....and then proceeded to blog....)

I have felt resentful of the fact that I had to start working again right away. The combination of Jayden's colic and working has been kicking my ass. I wish I could have a regular maternity leave like everyone else and just spend this time loving Jayden. Not worrying about work and having my alarm set for 5 AM. But, I keep telling myself it's better this way in the long run. I don't have to worry about going back to work in 6 weeks. I'll still get to be home with him, even if I am working part of that time. It's just hard now with the sleep deprivation.

We've had to change formulas a couple times. The one that we will probably end up sticking with is specifically for babies with colic and costs a small fortune. Our social worker suggested we check with our insurance to see if they will help cover it if our doctor writes a prescription. It would be nice, but I am not holding my breath. I just hope the formula works.

Jayden gave me two huge smiles on Saturday. I've seen little ones here and there but on Saturday there was no mistaking it. I did the same thing twice and got the same smile both times. It melted my heart. All day I kept thinking about it. He hasn't done it since, but it was amazing.

Now that I have written a full blog post after insisting I don't have time to do it....I will leave you with some pictures that make me laugh. My cousin made Jayden a hat, scarf, and booties. I took pictures of him wearing them and posted them on Facebook for her to see. He needs to grow into the hat, hehe.










15 comments:

  1. Hope you get some rest soon! I love the pictures; he is so cute! Take care of yourself!

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  2. He's such a little ham! I just love him. I so wish that I lived closer, Lisa. I'm dying to hold him. Give him a kiss for me, please?

    xo

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  3. I could have written this! I was back at work two weeks after my daughter's birth/adoption, and she had wicked colic. It was brutal. I still can't stand that I'm away from her all day, but at least my husband gets to be home with her.

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  4. Those slipper are adorable, but they pale in comparison to the cuteness of your boy. He is delicious.

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  5. Can you raise him with a British accent? Every time I look at the picture of him with the scarf I want to hear him say, "'ello, gov'na!" I'm going to have to talk with a British accent from now on around him in hopes that it'll catch on. But seriously, he melts my heart too <3

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  6. Ahhhh! Love him! He is just too cute lisa! Those booties are adorable!

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  7. I'm sorry your siblings live so far away...I wish they could be around to watch Jayden grow up -- I know that you love and miss them. I hope that the formula is covered...I also it helps him {and YOU} sleep!!!

    The pictures? A.Dorable. He's so precious Lisa. I can't wait till he smiles at you always :) Love you!

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  8. These are such cute pictures! Love the hat and booties - so cute! You have a very nice cousin.

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  9. Awww such cute pictures!! I'm sorry your siblings live so far away. My parents and my sister along with her family live in Florida while I'm up here in Michigan. It stinks to know that they're going to get pictures & videos for most of our children's lives.

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  10. Cute pictures as always, Lisa. I especially love the hat.

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  11. SOOO cute! I love the photos. I was in the same boat as you. My job didn't really see adoption the same as "having a baby" so they only offered me four weeks. I wish I had longer at home with him...enjoy this time and take lots of photos! Love your blog!

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  12. By the way - I just noticed that you brought Jayden home on Sept. 13 - we brought our son home on that SAME day. Our son, Bryce, was born on Sept. 1. When was Jayden born? Stop by my blog sometime! :-)

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  13. Those booties are incredible! So is the scarf and hat. What an adorable, precious little boy. Congrats, mom.

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  14. These pictures are so funny! He's just drowning in knit! :-)

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