Easter is hard for me. Well, I should say being childless at Easter is hard for me.
All holidays are hard, but I feel like Easter is a holiday that really is for children. Easter baskets, egg hunts, coloring eggs, etc. There isn't a lot to do on Easter if you aren't a child and you don't have children. Especially if you don't go to church, and you don't eat ham, haha.
The first Easter I lived with Adam, I filled plastic eggs with candy and hid them all around our apartment. When he woke up he was surprised to find a whole Easter egg hunt just for him. I also bought us Easter baskets and filled his with candy and other surprises. It was fun for the first few years, but then I eventually just felt sad about not having children to do those things for.
Adam being a good sport and coloring eggs with me a few years ago.
Last year I didn't even take out our Easter decorations because it just made me too sad. I decorated eggs with the children I work with, but Adam and I didn't celebrate Easter at all. I told myself I just had to make it through that year and by next year we would have a baby and everything would be different.
Well, another year has gone by and still no baby.
Easter things started showing up in the grocery store a few weeks ago and it has gotten harder and harder to walk past those aisles. I walk by with a knot in my stomach. Hoping I don't cry right there in the store.
I took our Easter baskets out this year. I even bought a few things to fill Adam's basket with. Shh. Don't tell him. ;)
But, what I really want to do is run away. I have off on Friday and I was hoping we could go on a little trip somewhere. I know we don't have the money for it, but I would really like to get away. I have been hinting at it for the past month. It would only be for two or three days, but we've actually never taken a trip longer than three days, and that is really all I need to relax and come back a new person. I could really use that right now.
I think I am going to go do some research and daydream about going somewhere nice....
Awww, I know how you feel. Sometimes the silliest things (well, things that seem silly to other people) can trigger an emotional meltdown!
ReplyDeleteAnd I agree, sometimes even a short vacation can be really refreshing! Hope you can get away for a bit! :)
I am sorry! I totally agree, go away you not only deserve it, you need it. Treat yourselves. There has to be someplace local that is fun!
ReplyDeleteI totally agree about Easter sucking when you don't have kids! I was just thinking about what we're going to do next week, and I think I'll spend the day in bed with my blanket over my head! Awful, I know.
ReplyDeleteI definitely think it would be great if you could do a short vacation! That would be so nice for you both! Oh - and I love the new blog design!
taking a little trip sounds like a great idea! Easter is a rough one since alot of the holiday is filled with kids stuff..I think it's adorable that your husband did Easter eggs with you. I love it!!
ReplyDeleteI completely agree about Easter. I too have been getting candy and baskets for my husband for years and it gets harder every time. I think a weekend away is a great idea! Maybe camping for a cheap option since money is tight? Or a mini roadtrip? Have fun whatever you do this weekend *hugs*
ReplyDeleteHolidays are always the hardest. Holidays are all so child-centric, it's a big fat reminder that you're childless. I'm sorry. But your next Easter will not be childless!
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