Sunday, March 28, 2010


Easter is hard for me. Well, I should say being childless at Easter is hard for me.

All holidays are hard, but I feel like Easter is a holiday that really is for children. Easter baskets, egg hunts, coloring eggs, etc. There isn't a lot to do on Easter if you aren't a child and you don't have children. Especially if you don't go to church, and you don't eat ham, haha.

The first Easter I lived with Adam, I filled plastic eggs with candy and hid them all around our apartment. When he woke up he was surprised to find a whole Easter egg hunt just for him. I also bought us Easter baskets and filled his with candy and other surprises. It was fun for the first few years, but then I eventually just felt sad about not having children to do those things for.

Adam being a good sport and coloring eggs with me a few years ago.

Last year I didn't even take out our Easter decorations because it just made me too sad. I decorated eggs with the children I work with, but Adam and I didn't celebrate Easter at all. I told myself I just had to make it through that year and by next year we would have a baby and everything would be different.

Well, another year has gone by and still no baby.

Easter things started showing up in the grocery store a few weeks ago and it has gotten harder and harder to walk past those aisles. I walk by with a knot in my stomach. Hoping I don't cry right there in the store.

I took our Easter baskets out this year. I even bought a few things to fill Adam's basket with. Shh. Don't tell him. ;)

But, what I really want to do is run away. I have off on Friday and I was hoping we could go on a little trip somewhere. I know we don't have the money for it, but I would really like to get away. I have been hinting at it for the past month. It would only be for two or three days, but we've actually never taken a trip longer than three days, and that is really all I need to relax and come back a new person. I could really use that right now.

I think I am going to go do some research and daydream about going somewhere nice....


  1. Awww, I know how you feel. Sometimes the silliest things (well, things that seem silly to other people) can trigger an emotional meltdown!

    And I agree, sometimes even a short vacation can be really refreshing! Hope you can get away for a bit! :)

  2. I am sorry! I totally agree, go away you not only deserve it, you need it. Treat yourselves. There has to be someplace local that is fun!

  3. I totally agree about Easter sucking when you don't have kids! I was just thinking about what we're going to do next week, and I think I'll spend the day in bed with my blanket over my head! Awful, I know.

    I definitely think it would be great if you could do a short vacation! That would be so nice for you both! Oh - and I love the new blog design!

  4. taking a little trip sounds like a great idea! Easter is a rough one since alot of the holiday is filled with kids stuff..I think it's adorable that your husband did Easter eggs with you. I love it!!

  5. I completely agree about Easter. I too have been getting candy and baskets for my husband for years and it gets harder every time. I think a weekend away is a great idea! Maybe camping for a cheap option since money is tight? Or a mini roadtrip? Have fun whatever you do this weekend *hugs*

  6. Holidays are always the hardest. Holidays are all so child-centric, it's a big fat reminder that you're childless. I'm sorry. But your next Easter will not be childless!