Monday, November 30, 2009

Dear Uterus

Dear Uterus,

Message received. I hear you loud and clear. Trust me, the feeling is mutual. I hate you too.

I should have known you were trouble from the time I got my first period at age 11. I was home baby-sitting my little sister and brother all day. With no way of calling my mom to get advice on what to do. It also happened to be the day of my mom's surprise birthday party. So not only was I baby-sitting, but I was cleaning and decorating, and letting guests in to wait for the big surprise. I should have known by that timing just how mean you were.

I fought for you. I gave you the benefit of the doubt. When I lost half of all the blood in my body, I begged to keep you. Even though you were on the verge of killing me.

I've had surgeries and procedures and taken hormones that made me sick for years.

The only thing I asked from you in return was a baby. Was that so much to ask? It's your only job!

I've given you plenty of chances and you have done nothing but try and kill me over and over again.

Endometrial cancer? Really? That's a low blow. After all I have done for you.

You know what?

I am going to let them take you now.

I am breaking up with you.

I am too good for you anyway.

Sincerely,

Lisa

P.S. You suck.

7 comments:

  1. I'm so sorry this is happening to you...I hope some day you can look back and feel that things happened the way they were supposed to happen, though I know that's hard right now.

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  2. Oh Lisa, this made me cry. My heart is breaking for you. Anything you need, if there is anything I can do to help, please let me know. Your TTC ladies are here supporting you.

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  3. Lisa, my thoughts are with you. And I am glad you are quitting that bitch.

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  4. This made me cry too. We are here to support you in any way possible.

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  5. I landed here from the Crème de la Crème list.

    Of all the betrayels a women's body commits in the course of IF, this has got to be one of the worst ones. What a blow!

    I'm glad to learn you had already decided to pursue adoption before this happened. In a way you were a step ahead.
    But, I'm sad that you've also been waiting to adopt for quite some time.

    I hope 2010 is the year for you, if you'll permit the platitude.

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  6. Here from CDLC also...
    What a powerful post. I am sorry you feel so betrayed. But you have another organ, your heart, that is completely on your side. May this year bring you a beautiful child and much joy.

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  7. I've come back to read this one again. Seriously Lisa, you blow me away. You're amazing. I'm always sending you positive adoption vibes... I know you will make an amazing mother :-)

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