Thursday, May 20, 2010

The Letter I was Hoping to Never Receive

It came.

The letter from the adoption agency asking us to send them a huge check to start the process of renewing our homestudy again.

We send the check, then they send us the paperwork. We fill out all the paperwork, get our physicals (yikes), ask people to be our references again (so embarrassing to ask for a third time), and then when it's all done, we can make an appointment to have our social worker come for another home visit.

Getting that letter is like opening the mailbox and having someone reach out and punch you in the stomach.

I will be waiting at least another month before I send the check in. I figure I have a little time before it's absolutely necessary. Especially if I move quick on the paperwork when it comes.

I will be spending the next month hoping for a miracle.

16 comments:

  1. CRAP!!! I'm so sorry that you have to go through all this again. I'm really hoping the next month will find you a baby...

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  2. I'm so sorry. Not the kind of milestone you want to want to have.

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  3. Lisa I am so sorry to hear that. My prayers are still with you and your hubby and the hopes that you will bring home a tiny miracle soon!

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  4. I am so sorry Lisa ... I really hope you guys can bring your child home soon, wherever he or she may be. ((hugs))

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  5. I am so, so sorry. I understand how that can feel like being punched. ((hugs))

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  6. I am sorry to hear of yet another road block in your journey. Last month a mutual friend suggested I read your blog because our stories are very similar. If you ever need to "talk", e-mail me at jbhowell74@gmail.com.

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  7. This sucks, Lisa. I wish you didn't have to think about this. :( Hoping and praying for a miracle in this next month, and sending you lots of hugs.

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  8. I am so VERY sorry that you are having to deal with all this. Sending you lots of hugs & positive thoughts...if you need to vent, you know where to find me!

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  9. that's horrible that they make you go through all this crap again!! huge hugs...I'll be praying for a miracle before your homestudy is over! *hugs*

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  10. Oh @#%#@! I'm sorry Lisa. I do have some good news though... somebody said something nice about you on The Stirrup Queen's Secret Ode Day!

    http://www.stirrup-queens.com/2010/05/secret-ode-day-ode-5/

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  11. Oh that bites. I am new to your blog but I am thinking of you and sending positive thoughts.

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  12. Crap! I am so sorry. This just isn't fair!

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  13. The uggghhhhhh we have to go through to become parents is so distressing. Hang in there; your day will come. Positive vibes are being sent your way right this second.

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  14. Sending miracle vibes your way...wish I could do something more than that!

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